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Nicholas Mark Anthoney
Call me Nick ONLY!!
14th January 1991
19 years old!!
Studying in Singapore Polytechnic
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Freaking tall but underweight
1/2 Pessimistic & 1/2 Optimistic
Email: nick.a.nator@hotmail.com
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Friday, September 07, 2007 - 9:43:00 PM

Today i am not going to talk about what i did in the afternoon but just what i thought about today.. If anyone especially my church friends are reading this, you can put down any comments you feel like leaving for me..

Usually I would go for these classes in church known as Catechism Classes.. To know more about God and stuff like that... During that period, I was in the church choir.. And every Sunday, I would be happy to attend church and meet up with my friends... But i graduated from these classes... It was called Confirmation.. Something like being adult catholics and stuff like that..

When these classes finished, I felt..... Lost... As if i had nothing to do.. Who would want to know about God.. Ask yourself this question.. Would you really care about God at all?? I hear a lot of people criticize about God.. "Care about him for what!!" And they call themselves "Free Thinkers"... I feel these people will not get far in life..

I am ashamed to share about God all the time... Unless someone approaches me and ask me about the topic... For that I will be happy to share...

All I had left was the choir... I had no reason to wake up early anymore.. My punctuality for attending masses was worsening... It was so bad that one day, the choir master kicked me out.. Yes.. KICKED ME!! I saw this coming.. But i did not do anything to prevent it from happening...

Now there was nothing... I have no more ministries to attend to in church... I felt as if church was pointless... I even see Justin.. Not going to church anymore...

But my friends there kept me going on.. I would always picture myself walking in and out of church greeting my friends... That would give me a sense of belonging.. Until what happened today........

Went into church... Blah blah... Walked in.. Saw no familiar faces... Except for those adults who will admire my height... Saying that their necks will break looking at me... Did any of you ever know that I feel irritated when people make comments on my height... Damn IRRITATING!!!

Before the service ended, I looked around... I saw that most of the teenagers are with their friends... Then i wondered about myself.. What about me?? Who can I be with instead of my mum?? I started feeling upset...

Then me and my mum waited outside the church door to wait for my mum's friend's son... During that period of time... A whole lot of my church friends came out of church... I was like expecting someone to look at me.. A smile... NO!! Nothing.. Not even a chuckle... I was like the tallest man on Earth and no one looked at me... There was even a group where there was a whole lot of my friends... They were hugging and greeting each other.. None of them noticed me.. I was like beside them...

I have no more reason to go to church anymore... There is nothing... No meaning if I attend mass... I don't want to attend tomorrow's service and the services after that.. But no choice.. If I do not go, mum's mood will change... What to do......

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